Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Fair Fight

last day of "nesting" today.we're now moving on to production.no more supports, no more assists, like a bird, we now have to spread our own wings and rely on to ourselves.gawd i'm so afraid...it's either i make it or not.

i still have the chills.the fear.the anxieties. whenever i'm about to approach the station, i just don't know.my stomach cramps, my knees weaken, my mouth dries and arggghh my mind spins.there's only a single thing that i do whenever hesitation starts to creep in..i say my favorite prayer, The Lord's Prayer.and it works, always.

funny how i was able to formulate a little theory on how to avoid impossible and irate customers. it started when i noticed that whenever i take a station with a fat headset,i mean a kinda big headset, sales would flow in, kudos would come and overall satisfaction will be expressed by most of the callers. short calls because of simple concerns also are the ones lined up for those stations with kinda big headsets, therefore helping improve my average handling time or the number of minutes i spend (t) on each call.when seat shortage however occurs and i will be forced to take a cubicle with a thin headset, the opposite happens.

this theory, however, remains a secret coz i don't want my teammates to think that i'm suffering from psychological disorder.hahaha.bleh :p

going back to my chills, i approached TL and told her that I am really afraid to work on my own.I cited my lack of experience in this business as the one responsible for my level zero confidence. modesty aside, i know i'm doing good.excellent in fact...my score card serves as my evidence to that but that's not enough for me to believe that i am now ready to be on my own.

she just smiled at me and said,

"you know what?, i understand you.two years ago, i also had the same predicaments.the chills while walking on the hallway, the endless praying of Hail Mary....but i have always believed in the importance of a FAIR FIGHT.

and a FAIR FIGHT means giving yourself a chance...trying....believing....we don't know what will happen, we might fail but remember, we might also succeed.

do not deny yourself a fair fight mike..."

i sighed...smiled....thanked her....approached my station and sighed again....logged in....pressed auto in...


fair fight now begins...:p


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*how i wish i had given myself a fair fight when i was still with him.too bad TL was not there yet to tell me those words.had i known, i could have been fighting till now.

sad that i already pressed the log-out button on his life.sad that i have no more calls to answer on the line that we built together.

sad that there would be no more "thank you for calling, please have a good day, i'm just here on the other line, i'm listening, i understand your point, i apologize for that, let me help you with that, please take care, please expect a callback from me..."

no more "please call me anytime you need me.."

no more "i love you..please hold on"


sigh...

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Pers Taym

ehem.new blog.new life.

as if ang blog ang makakagawa nun di ba?hehe.wag nyo po ako tanungin kung bakit ganyan ang title ng blog na 'to.wala akong matalinong sagot dahil super mangmang ako.yung dati kong blog, bigla nalang may pumasok sa isip ko na eat all you can kaya ayun, yun ang naging title.hindi ako mahirap kausap, kahit sa totoong buhay.swear.kung anu ang nandyan, fayn, ayos na yan.ahehe.kaya ganito ang buhay ko, puro kaululan.kasi,may utak nga ako, hindi ko naman magamit-gamit.

sana po ay tangkilikin ninyo ang aking bagong blog.naks, parang nagpu promote lang ng hapee toothpaste, gawang-pinoy.hindi ko naman siguro maiisip yung title na ganyan kung walang pinaghuhugutang malalim na nakaraan, syet, i hate the past, ahihi, di ba?

ganito lang yun.kasi po, sa kasalukuyan pagud na pagod na ako.mag-isa lang ako, at mag-isa sa totoong kahulugan ng salita yun.mag-isa sa kwarto, mag-isa sa cebu, mag-isa sa buhay (walang jowa,haha), mag-isa sa mga pangarap at mag-isa sa nyetang mga kawirduhan ko.kakapagod ang mga nangyayari sa buhay ko...pahid ng luha...tingin sa camera,lolz...wala po kasing nababago, hirap pa rin.malayo sa pamily, este family, kayod-to-the-max pero walang nararating.imbes na paakyat, bulusok ang direksyon ko.malapit ng sumadsad.

pero sa kabila ng lahat..ahem..makatang pilipino...hindi ako bibigay.hindi ko ibibigay ang iniingatan kong virginity, lolz.hindi ako susuko.pag pagod, wag magreklamo,pahinga lang ang katapat nyan.sandal ng likod, lipas na.pag gutom, wag umiyak, inom ng tubig, buksan ang skyflakes, nguya,lunok.pikit, okay na.pag nalulungkot, wag mag-alala.may mga kaibigan sa paligid,isang text, isang katok lang, instant ligaya na.pag nasasaktan, pikit lang ng mata at tumawag sa Kanya, sa dasal palaging mayroong kapayapaan.

lahat tayo, mapapagod..lahat tayo, manghihina.ayos lang, wag na wag lang tayong susuko.....sa laban ng buhay, dapat matatag (manny pacquiao ikaw ba yan!).


there are two greatest days in your life,
the day you were born,
and the day,
you'll discover why...

-mikmik



don't give up warriors :p